Yes Alice, criticize complicate and be upset with me.
My writing has been sparse as of late largely because there hasn't been much to say. Me and P are still separated despite the fact that he's driving me insane with his inane comments about the move. I guess this is just one of many lessons that needs to be learned in the art of marriage.
My instrument is back up at work. I hate to speak of it too much because I worry that I might jinx it. Yes, I'm even at work on this delightfully sunny Sunday because well...although the Lord did rest on this day he was just creating a universe, not trying to finish a PhD.
It's odd, I tell people I want to hang out, see people, but I haven't heard a peep from anyone. I think it's because people get busy with their own lives and assume that I'm just as busy. And while I am...it's hard to be alone so much. I think so often people take for granted that they have a husband that lives in state to fight with. I think sometimes I head towards my friends that are military brats, that in my mind...know.
It's an interesting dynamic. I have been on this website too for my leg? AVM Survivors, while worthwhile has been both a source of anger and frustration and relief to me. You know when I was diagnosed I was so young, we had no idea. Now...now things are so different and the technology is advanced I feel like if I don't tell people what happened to me, they will be forced to deal with the same troubles and hardships. I don't quite know if I'm okay with that. I struggle with perception of how my leg is, but then on the flipside deny it so often. I know it's what pushes me to work so hard, to try and do so much.
Some days I just wanna quit. Sleep some more. What am I talking about somedays? everyday.
Forever your servant-
M
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